If you know me, you know that I listen to Christian music 90% of the time, or 99% of the time in my car (except this time of the year, then it’s 100% Christmas music). I couldn’t tell you what the top pop song is right now, and I’ve probably never heard it, but I could tell you about the newest Christian artist or a song that really spoke to me.
And with that, I am a huge Francesca Battistelli fan. I love her sound, I love the words she sings, and I love that you get a feel for her heart through her songs. They speak to me. I can relate to them. Her voice and her heart are what really get me though.
One song that especially hits me is I’m Letting Go.
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
I’m losing control
Of my destiny
It feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go
It’s taken me a really long time, like years plus some!, to figure that concept out. To let go of what I had planned for my life and let God lead me to where He plans to take me. I can’t say I’ve perfected letting go, giving up control, completely 100% relying on God, but I’m working on it. And just by taking the action and passing my controlling burden on to the One who controls all has really done just that, released a burden that has been weighing me down. Fear of the unknown still scares me, a lot, but I know that the plan that has already been laid out for me since before I was even a glimmer in my parent’s eyes is far, far better than what I thought I had planned out for my own life.
Right now I’m content with where I am in my life. I’m single, so what, I’m alive with family and friends that love and support me. I’m not 100% happy at my job, but at least I have one in this economy. My dog has health issues (sorry, had to throw that one in there), but she’s still alive and her issues are being controlled with medication. I’m here. I’m me. A new year is coming. Big things are going to happy in the new year, I can feel it. (which is maybe why I feel such peace…)
But if you think about it, please keep this struggle of mine in your prayers.
And please, if you have any prayer requests, comment them below and I’ll pray for you as well.